Seeking Love In Separation

My hands are trembling, words are not flowing but I have to write. Write because I am feeling helpless and this feeling of helplessness is getting me drowned in it. I need to tell this. I need to share this pain which I am feeling now.

I love you and I even know that you love me more than I love you. You are my life, you are my breath and you are all the charm I have in me. You are my bliss, my happiness and the one I seek peace in.

But once again it has proved right for me that love is synonymous to pain. 

Why do we have to live apart?

This question haunts me day and night. 

Even though knowing the answer I ask this question again and again to myself and remaining answer-less each and every single time.                               

I don't want this job which is separating me from you.

I just want to be with you. What will I earn if I loose being with you.  If my victory is you then I really don't care what my loss is.

When we meet after a long year, when I see your face. I become the happiest man on the earth and this happiness is best expressed by the tears of joy flowing from my eyes.

Every time I see you, I feel blessed. I feel blessed for each and every moment I spend with you. The time I spend with you is the most I cherish and the most I adore and remember.

But when the time comes to say you bye. I hate it the most and ironically again my sadness is best expressed by my tears.

Every time we depart I pray to see you soon.

Why is life so demanding, why can't I choose my children's bright future and my love both in my life. But the bitter truth is I can't. And I'll have to loose hold of one to catch other.

Covering the sadness with the hope of positivity to see you, I continue to live this life without my life, my love and my breath ………

I cannot describe how much I love you but I can only say that I only live in hope to meet you again and again. You are the one I live for, you are the one I breathe for.

I love you and I will keep doing that because I believe

A moment of true love can last forever....